Post by Alexia Helena Richter on Jul 29, 2011 9:27:40 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 400px; height: 350px; background-image: url(http://www.samplewords.com/docthumbs/home-notebook-paper-thumb.jpg); border-radius: 70px 5px 70px 5px; -moz-border-radius: 70px 5px 70px 5px; border: 1px solid #000000;] - Alexia Helena Richter - - - -- - - - - - - - -7/29/11 I don’t know what on earth is going on anymore. It’s starting to get a little ridiculous. I’ve never had such a need for friends before, or an outlet to share my emotions like this journal. It seems like I’m just falling apart and this is the way I’m going to record my utter demise. Everything sucks and nothing seems to be getting better. This journal serves as warning for anyone else that finds themselves in this situation. Anyways. I must painfully start recording the events of the past week I suppose. I mean, I didn’t have a horrid time at the Masquerade, although I nearly spoke of my… condition to Emmelia again. Luckily then, I was able to stop myself when people started coming back into the tent. I wouldn’t want that spreading around the school like wildfire. My parents knew too many people to risk that. I’m sure next time I run into that Professor Abaris that I’ll have a detention for spiking the punch, but it was totally worth it. That bitch, Bellatrix Black, nearly ended up hooking up with some disgusting GRYFFINDOR. Talk about disgusting. Em and Eli are at it again, but this time it seems a hell of a lot more serious. I feel like I’m being black mailed by Eli so he won’t tell her father, and it is disgusting. He KISSED me. I’d say it was something akin to having a dog trying to suck the life out of your mouth. Pure atrociousness. I know it will happen someday, but I don’t want to go around going out of my way to be with men. It makes me want to vomit. I don’t really know what to do with them still. Eli pretty much blackmailed me the other day in order to make Hunter jealous. We are suppose to be a bloody team right? He can’t go around waving the “I’LL TELL FATHER!” Flag forever. There will be hell for him to pay when they eventually find out. I’ll cut his parts off when that day comes for blackmailing me. And then I finally told Em, and now I feel disgusting. It was bad enough when only the people I slept with knew about my condition, but now she knows. Em claims that it is not something that is disgusting and ought to be hated, but I know better. What I do is sickening, and unlike her, I won’t have anyone to help me when I go home. All I have to do is pray to Merlin that my parents never find out. Maybe I can someday allow myself to marry and just have mistresses. The heir-making part of that will be disgusting, but at least I won’t be disowned. template by (c) bryberry @ caution 2.0 ! |
