Post by abbott on Jul 18, 2011 18:38:38 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v202/redheadsaid/Ripixietwo.png); border: solid #241801 5px; width: 250px; height: 560px;] Hannah Abbott's IC-chat Log The play by play of the IC box Dear Dairy, Okay first of all. It pains me that I’m actually keeping sodding journal now.. Honestly I have so many other ways to occupy my time than writing out the nights past events, not to mention there are some things that I do, that I really don’t want documented… Like honestly a good portion of last night was painful enough without the thought of being able to re-live it every time I read this stupid book.. Last night was a complete bust.. And for a moment there I think I had a handle of things.. Till I saw my weakness and realized that I’m not the only one who saw it, enough about that, though let’s start from the beginning.. I was hanging out in the common room and I noticed right away that Black sisters were there and then it only took a few moments to stagger into the revelation that I was experiencing a Draco Malfoy family re-union honestly they were all there.. His aunts, his uncle’s and his mother and father.. People who I’m sure mean the world to him.. It only took a few moments of actually listening to their… Well not even sure what to call that.. Privileged Mewing of the clinically insane? It was an eye opener as they were all, as I have pictured them.. Bellatrix just as crazed and hot-tempered and narcissistic as I envisioned, which is saying a lot.. I had for so long wondered how Draco became the sad deplorable person that he is.... Then I actually witnessed it… Just imagine a life time of people like that being the only thing you can look up too. They honestly don’t have one redeeming quality that I can speak of. They are shallow and egocentric and the men, I have never in my life witnessed such a blatant example of hen-pecked, Take Rodolphus Lestrange as a prime example. I don’t believe he is even married to Bellatrix yet , but I’m fairly certain she has already castrated the boy. If he isn’t asking her permission to pee or breath ,and have an opinion, he very soon will be? Well this is how the incident happened, I believe Bellatrix didn’t very much fancy my presence in what she assumed was her Common room.. Apparently she didn’t get the memo that I un-like Rodolphus sit where I where ever I damn will feel like sitting, and I don’t need her permission to do so.. Well that mentality didn’t exactly go over well with the Slytherein's, and it didn’t take long for an exchange of words to happen. I think it boiled down Bella saying she didn’t liked the way I looked, and I telling her that it was fine.. Cause I was fairly certain that people turn to stone when they actually look at her.. Rod said something cause being the nurtured lap dog that he is, he had to attempted to find his dignity somehow. Then I believe it was then that Bella’s sister Cissa asked me if I was strung out on something or just stupid. Frankly the I can barely tolerate that hag when she's immersed in her magazines and quiet, the fact that she would ever think it is appropriate to speak to me in anyways shape or form is a bit too much for me to keep silent on.. I told her that I disliked her kind, which is true, you can’t like the way that they are. She said that to dislike purebloods is ridiculous.. LIKE THE REASON I DISLIKE HER WAS THE FACT SHE WAS A PUREBLOOD? Yeahhhhh, and I’m to be the stupid one there? Well I Told her that the reason I disliked her had nothing to do with her blood and everything to do with being a bitch.. Well That set off Several people.. Bella for one started bellowing like a banshee all sorts of delusions some of which I’m not even sure are possible. Well true to their Slytherin courageous nature the mix of them started issuing insults and threats and demands that I take back my insult to Narcissa.. It didn’t happen. I haven’t apologized and nor will I apologize either. If they can’t handle the way the people see them perhaps they should remain out of public eye.. Merlin knows the Public would appreciate it. Well nothing happened other than Bellatrix punched me.. Frankly I do have to admit I’m a bit surprised by that.. Had her pegged for slapping but she can throw a good left hook granted nothing like Susan, but still it was decent. The room cleared out.. Then a strange thing happened.. I don’t know why but Hagrid the Game Keeper caught me in the Woods Looking for Hippogriff’s. He scolded me for being out there and I explained I didn’t know why I was out there.. He seemed concerned thinking I had taken ill and he took me back to his hut and fixed me some well I Think it was Tea.. Whatever it was it was gross but his kindness wasn’t. I feel bad I should have been kinder to him when he was a professor… I will make it a point to make him knit him a hat and make him some cookies. Well When I got back to the common room I found Draco there.. Honestly, like the night couldn’t suck more.. We got into a small altercation. I don’t know, but I think it is over the fact that I called his father a gutless swine who suckles at the teat of You know who, apparently that offended him. Truthfully I think he hates being compared to his father as much as dislike being reminded that my family is dead.. We both have found our personal our Rage buttons….He cut me at my neck, and well I gouged out a small part of his crotch which thankfully made him stop his attempt at cutting my throat.. Okay, I would very proud of myself if it wasn’t for the next few things that happened. He got all Draco’ish not the cold bastard I know he is but for a bit he reminded me of how he was when he was a second year when it was all just fun silly, and risk less flirting. They way he used to let me know that he caught me staring the simple acknowledgement that he knew I liked him and that is all it was.. I know I’m over him.. I KNOW THIS. I knew it the moment that I felt Cedric hug me that my affections had changed. Sadly Draco reminded me yesterday that regardless of how much I have grown or changed that there is still a part of me that looks for a way to fix him, I don’t want him but I don’t want him to end up like his father either, and I don’t think he wants to end up like his father either. I know how very dangerous my thoughts are, I know he can kill me, but that isn’t the worst he could do to me… I know that I care about him and where I don’t delusion myself with thoughts that he could ever be what I need or that I could ever make him happy, I know that pursuing him will only lead to being used, disgraced, dismissed and well if I’m lucky death.. I think I covered my tracks well though, I think he thinks it is was just embarrassment. template made by mikey is a lady killer ?! @ caution 2.0, steal it and she'll send her zombie pandas to eat your brains! |
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